Hi

Get used to a lot more writing here!

I made a firm decision to journal A LOT more, and not just the tripe I post to my ravey gravey one.

I really need to uncensor the thoughts in my head, be they happy/sad/mad/...and I know I can't do that amongst the insanely incestual scene (aka - people Kyle and I have slept with - lol, kidding!) that has access to PR.

Sorry if anything I ever say gets too graphic Miss R. *blush*, but I think we're perfectly able to have a friendship where that really doesn't matter...I don't judge, and I highly doubt you do either <3

I'd like to try to post a bit of a weekly summarization after I finish work around midnight tonight to start :)

What now?

Apparently, I need a new job.

I really like the one I have...but it's costly and kinda super stressful...

I'm young, and I strongly dislike, and make efforts to eliminate stress...at ALL TIMES!
It's horribly aging and painful at the best of times...and I for one, am not a fan.

*sigh*

This world is lucky I love change :\

Bring it on!

I have a lot to be happy about regardless, and honestly, I know if I think positively and enjoy myself along the way it'll be a good time :)

<3

P.S - I think Kyle danced his way into my soul...

Restart

I need to save up for a good mp3 player.

Not sure that I really want to, since there are other pressing purchases I'd like...but if the incident that I had to survive last week had any ground (which it apparently did) due to my retention of that music player of Kyle's...then...I just need to.

We still had a great weekend, and I'm so very grateful for all the help that I received throughout it.

I'm looking forward to getting my Autoshare account reactivated for work (and personal ventures), and I hope there's no trouble there.

Feeling really weird today...but I can't put my finger on the exacts of it just yet...

I think I just need some nice quiet time alone :)

Melting

Even the most frigid of Shiva's can be heated ever so slightly under the right conditions.

Mr. Fahrenheit usually knows exactly where to turn the dial ;)

I might still be cool to the touch...but have now defrosted and am ready to bake...lol...vape, vape, vape!

Here's hoping that all's well that ends well...

Love always,

me

<3

Everyday I love you less and less...

^
Song (I forget the artist) chorus reference...although fitting to the day I had...

Not really sure why I'm internet immortilizing it here, since it's certainly not one I want to remember, but everything happens for a reason I suppose.

Pretty sure I had a heart attack (of some sort) today, and I think I need to make sure it's mended sooner then later...gah
Maybe you just can't have Earth and Fire...without...Wind?
heh...

I dunno.

&and&

I remember Kyle telling me I couldn't say that I would "...give my left nut..." or something to that effect, since I don't have the proverbial appendage...lol...I dunno what the equivalent would be I suppose!
:P
Also...
He said that he'll get purtied up one day makeup and everything...not sure myself that he'll look good since he's such a manly man to me <3
...but oh my frickin' god it'd be crazy super fun :D

Two Faced

Miss R...

Archie pointed out that I tend to neglect this journal with regards to the 99.9% of happy times that him and I have, as I tend to remember to write here mostly in times of distress :P

It obviously didn't occur to me that I was doing that...but it's true!

I write little happy blurbs, more often then not, in my purerave journal (buttahflye), since I tend to be logged in talking to friends there pretty much every day.

So yah...

I guess the 'Wheel of Morality' lesson here is:

The answer my friend, is blowing in the wind.

hehehe

Squished Tomatoes

So apparently we both love each other too much!

Oh Archie...

<3

I'm supposedly the articulate one, yet your words and thoughts are always so much more clearer than mine.

We've both expressed our distaste for those tears (that have appeared as of late) in my eyes, and I know and believe how unbearable it must be when they're heard over the phone...
yet just a few unpleasant-ish calls, and here I am...stoned :P...but even without that...BETTER <3

I do love you too much!